The final leg of 2007 went by in a whirl. I was so caught up with school, moving into my new apartment, waitressing, babysitting and catching up with friends that I've neglected "me" time. I spent most of the days in December frantically typing on my laptop, blabbering about theories that made sense to me then, and speed-reading 600 pages in less than 36 hours. I have never felt my eyes so sore and my brain so drained at the same time. After 18 years of taking countless exams, I no longer worry about not remembering anything just before my exam because I know I can count on the phenomenal function of my brain to remember stuff when it is time for it to. It's almost like deja voo.
Spending the last week of December with my family almost everyday was a good change in pace and a chance for us to finally spend quality time together. The last time I actually had dinner with my dad everyday for three consecutive days was probably 10 years ago when we went on a vacation together. I've never woken up with my dad in the same vicinity or go to bed knowing that he's still awake. This time, we also spoke about different things on a different level. Maybe it is his age catching up with him and he feels the need to be more understanding, or perhaps I've learnt the art of expressing my provoking thoughts subtlety so that my conservative dad can digest them, but whatever it is, it is working well, and we spoke more than we ever did in the last 6 years. I feel that over the last 6 months, I've grown to be more understanding and compassionate and I try to put myself in someone else's shoes before passing a judgement. I've learnt to reassess situations and weigh the consequences, and I've also learnt to tell myself NO and to refrain myself from doing things that will give me temporary satisfaction but can potentially be detrimental in the long run. Sometimes all it takes is for something to go right before everything else falls into place.
Life is like a riddle. You collect clues along the way that will lead you to the right answer.
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